MY AMAZING TWISTED MAZE

I have been pondering my life quite a bit over the last few days and I have come to a rather good conclusion.
That life itself is an AMAZING twisted maze of. People, Events, and times, and places. I have chosen to talk about some of the more major events, people, times and places.

My first major event of memory was my confirmation, I remember kissing the bishops ring and that there was some kind of oath that I was supposed to take and I remember quite clearly that I didn't want to take the oath afraid if I did and I broke it I would immediately die and go to hell. But then I was only 7 and memories from when you are 7 aren't all that clear.

The second major event was my wedding it was a beautiful day a very warm Dec. 5th but one of the few last good days for the next 8 years.

The next major event was the birth of my son he was the light of my life. A beautiful tiny baby boy. Of course his Dad wasn't there as always. But non the less the happiest day of my life. The greatest thing I ever did.

The next major event of my life was a few years later when I had a still born child. The most hurtful painful thing that can happen to a woman is to carry a baby and have it be born dead. I think that is the first time I felt real depression. Again my ex wasn't around. I was far away from home so my folks couldn't be there with me so basically I was alone. Except for my 4 year old child. He kept me going though.

The next major event was my divorce. You know no matter how bad things are and how much you really need to get out of the marriage it is still a very painful sad event in your life. I was heartbroken that the man I loved 8 years before had torn our lives apart so bad that I couldn't even stay in the same room with him he had taken my love and turned it into bitterness and anger and pain. My son (who by the way his name is Jason) has a saying that to this day if my ex-husband gets within 500 miles of me I get bitchy even if I don't know he is there. OH well some thing I guess weren't ment to be.

So the next time you are pondering or musing just remember it is easier to sit back and take a look if you just think about it as an AMAZING twisted Maze then no matter how difficult things maybe it might make it a little easier to know that despite the fact you have no idea what is around that next corner it is in the end all going to connect and be the Maze that is your life. With all its good and bad twists and turns.


As I glanced back at my life I found that it is a few major events and a lot of little ones Some good some bad. All strung together in a zig-zag twisted up and down back and forth pattern that makes up our lives. It takes to us to where we are and who we are today.

I do have one major event that I shared though this past summer with two of my best friends :

Time 8:30am. The Place NYC corner of 14th St. and 9th Ave. The People Janice, Kimmy, Myself and Vincent D'Onofrio. At 8:30am on a Sat. morning as I turned the corner on 14th and 9th in late July there walking down the street was Vincent D'Onofrio which for me and my friends made a lovely weekend in the city and even nicer experience and so here on my blog I want to thank Vincent for being a very gratious person and waving back to a group of strangers in a car and waiting so patiently for us to turn the corner and let him cross. I tell what a sweet guy.
So to date this has been my musings although most of which would probably bore you to tears that is why I only skimmed over a few of the major events.

Smile it is almost Christmas the most wonderful time of the year.

These are just a few musings and to all my blog buddies out there I want to thank you all for coming by and reading my blog nomatter how boring I get. You are all wonderful people
Love Always,
:) Deb